I’ve been doing some shopping — mainly for micro — the past few weeks, as we move through toilet training and prepare for school next week. I cannot believe we are here. Some parenting moments unexpectedly take the wind out of me. When I took micro for a visit day at his new school in November, I retreated to my car and wept over the steering wheel. It was the strangest sensation, as I had not felt it brewing in the least. I’d been shades of chipper and all-business the entirety of the morning, and then I closed the door of my car and burst into uncontrollable tears. I drove down to Furst Bakery on Connecticut Avenue immediately afterward in a paroxysm of emotion and at some point caught a glimpse of myself in the rear view mirror and burst into simultaneous laughter. I mean, really! What a nut! It wasn’t even the true first day of school — I still had a month of his voice chirping around the house all day long to cherish. (And boy did I get what I wished for — a string of eighteen days in his constant presence, followed by the chaos of Christmas and the no-man’s-land that is the week before the new year.) But motherhood is like that, I find: the tiniest tug might lever the most enormous lurch of the heart. Sort of like fishing, I think: a little nibble, you reel, and you might find a whale at the other end of the line.
Anyhow, I’ll be weepy all week. I struggle with these transitions, which I presume to be a normal condition of motherhood. But we will make it to the other end, whale in tow and all.
Below, some of the fruits of my shopping….
WEE ONES BOW — BEST COLOR…SORT OF A GRAY-LAVENDER-TAUPE-MAUVE
THESE RIBBED DRESSES ARE ON SALE FOR ONLY $14 — COME IN MORE COLORS, TOO
VANS HI-TOPS (SUCH A GOOD BLUE!)
YUMBOX MINI – PERFECT FOR PACKING SNACKS! I USUALLY DO FRUIT ON ONE SIDE AND SOMETHING CRUNCHY ON THE OTHER (GRANOLA BALLS, PRETZELS, GOLDFISH)
P.P.S. Layette finds here.
P.P.P.S. Was overwhelmed by the solidarity of moms sharing the same feelings in response to this post. Thank you! None of us are alone!