In the wee small hours, when there are tiny voices at our door,
or I am twisting the bedsheets with anxious thoughts,
you are there,
as predictable as the moon.
When our son was a few days old,
everything hurt in the middle of the night: the garish light from the bedside lamp,
the incision stinging across my belly, my aching arms and breasts,
my heart, stretched and misshapen,
and I remember looking out the window of our Manhattan apartment, and noticing the lit squares of a handful of windows in the building across our caliginous courtyard,
and I wrote stories into those midnight sills,
of other parents, rocking their own babies, in the still of the night.
When I was febrile and weak that March of 2020,
sweating and convulsing in our bed, begging for daybreak, and fever-break, and a break from the pandemic,
our airedale leapt onto the bed and curled her body against mine,
her chocolate drop eyes seeking nothing in exchange for her company,
and I thought how impossible the night can be,
without these twilight talismans.
+3 a.m. parties. (Not what you think!)
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+Wow. I am obsessed with this coat from Sezane.
+This brand makes the BEST puzzles — we love to set out a puzzle in the cooler weather months, especially around Thanksgiving and Christmas — and I just bought this one for the fall season. These also make pretty gifts!
+Lululemon Aligns, restocked in fresh colors for fall! They also brought back their wildly popular sherpa belt bags, although I got the look for less last season with this $20 Amazon score. I love it! Will wear a lot this season, too. Great for walks with girlfriends / casual athleisure moments.
+I know many people are devoted to Nili Lotan’s Shon pant — if you want the look for a little less, try Velvet’s Brylie pants. They already sold out at Saks and Shopbop but are still available on Velvet’s site. I think I’m going to order to try!
+Ordered this oversized tunic sweatshirt in brown!
+This sherpa zip-up for kids is currently under $20.
+Gorgeous dress from Tuckernuck.
+I’ve been looking for a reading arm chair for my son’s room. It’s tricky because I know he will destroy it so I don’t want to spend a fortune on it. Currently contemplating this one from The Inside. Does anyone have any other recs?
+Such a cheerful cardigan.
+Indulging my inner boho.