Towards the end of his life, in the midst of a terrible physical and mental collapse, William Carlos Williams wrote a poem called “Asphodel, That Greeny Flower.” I have read that he was so affected by recent strokes that he had to type it with the fingers of one hand, and could barely see his progress on paper. Much of it was written while he was admitted to a mental hospital for psychiatric treatment; he had recently been designated as Poetry Consultant to the Library of Congress, and then stripped of the appointment owing to his suspected political affiliations, and his wife of many years had begun to interrogate claims of his infidelities during this time, too. Those months must have seemed, for Williams, a long night, a torturous vigil.
And yet the poem is a beautiful affirmation of love in the face of destruction.
In it, he writes:
“I have learned much in my life / from books / and out of them / about love. / Death / is not the end of it.”
Later, he writes that love’s reward “is a fairy flower; / a cat of twenty lives. / If no one came to try it / the world / would be the loser.”
(The world would be the loser!)
and
“The storm bursts / or fades! it is not / the end of the world. / Love is something else, / or so I thought it, / a garden which expands.”
Love is a garden which expands! The illogic of its boundlessness, of its perennial bloom!
The entire poem, and its construction amidst bruising adversity, moves me so deeply — the way, as I wrote recently, “life will ask a lot of you, but love will continue to provide the provisional form you need to bear through.” For Williams, that form was a triadic line.
Worth a read if you need to recenter, to let go the things pawing at your pockets today. I find its conversational style easier to digest than you might expect — it reads like a long, whispered conversation between two lovers, and this intimacy itself is a talkback to torment.
Post-Scripts.
+”The world is a mist. And then the world is vast, minute, and clear.“
+A prompt: “How do the everyday objects and sights around me model love?”
+More poetry I love here and here.
Shopping Break.
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Jen—I love this post so much. For years I’ve been haunted by that greeny flower. I think if that poem often when hiking in the Sierras or Colorado but also just feel those lines randomly. I first read this poem—or rather heard it read aloud to me—about a million decades ago when I was 20 and in a creative writing workshop. There is something so life affirming in its ruinations on life and love and marriage. Williams is sort of sorry/not sorry in much of his work. WCW is sort of out of literary fashion I think now and we may right now be the only 2 people in the universe contemplating his work.
But Williams’ poetry and Joan Didion’s prose were major forces in my later decisions to go to graduate school, to become a professor and to write.
I’m so happy to be reminded of this by you today! Jen, your writing here is so remarkable and sensitive. I love your deft moves from the sublime to the search for perfect shoes, and from poetry to the search for the perfect dress to wear to a wedding. (And I frequently take your advice.)
Thank you.
Gosh, thanks so much for the encouragement and praise, and also for these fascinating insights about WCW. I love the observation that he is sort of “sorry/not sorry” and you can read that here, too…and yet to be so starry-eyed about love! Even when life got tough. So stirring.
xx